Sometimes they say

The lyrics to a song,
Define the singer more than you'd think.
Or they don't,
I don't really know
But I'm trying, oh god, yeah I'm trying
To just think...
Wait, no, I'll sink.

See, I'm
Drowning, drowning in my head
In this world
I'm close to dead, already.
Shoot me in the head, already
Wait, no, did ixjust say that?
Sorry mom, no, I'm fine
You're little girl's just happy, all of the time
Wait, no, am i really?
I scare myself and I don't want to scare anyone else.

Wait, really??
Really...
It's okay to be scared? No it's not
You're fucking dilusional
Scared? Fear? No, something else
Fucking dilusional.
I'm tearing through the bags under my eyes,
I'll try to scream myself to life
Maybe if I just hide under that defensive layer I've built,
I can pretend I have no guilt.

Scared, no, fear, what? COME BACK!!
Everyone's leaving me , just like that.
Sure, you say it's fine, you love me, you won't leave
Wait until I show who I've become, really

It's pretty fucking terrifying,
When you look past my dark brown eyes, its
Something different, it's been rotting for awhile.
I'm a terrified child.

I'm a child, and I'm petrified!
Imma need three kinds of pills to keep me alive!
I'll surivive!
Medicate me, and I'll try to fight!
With all my might!
Dodge the bullets going between my eyes, I'm just fine!
I'm just fine! Yeah, yeah, I'm perfectly fine!
It's all cool here, everything's alright
You're fucking dramatic!
I'm doing just fantastic!
Eat your own words, before I drown in the black end.

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Moosic

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