I'm really losing track of time.

I've been in contact with a lot more of my friends from school
I've been trying to spend more time with my family
Even if it means I'm hardly here for all of you
And...I'm sorry about that...
But, seriously, all of this shit on my tablet just causes my anxiety to peak
It's probably one of my currently biggest causes of stress and anxiety
Everything I've said
Everything I've done
It's fucking me up and the time I've spent way had been pretty...calming ig
And my family is driving my insane bc they get annoying after awhile, but I'm starting school soon, so maybe that'll get better
I honestly don't know what I want anymore or what I should do
I honestly just feel guilty rn
For so many reasons

I haven't been on at night now at all bc I'm trying to get a slightly better sleeping pattern
The last two nights I've taken melatonin, it wakes me up constantly throughout the night with huge headaches and the feeling of exhaustion
If I come downstairs for something to drink at 8 am, my mom makes me stay awake
So I have to take Tylenol or something for the headache
I don't know, I'm probably going to force myself to pass out soon
I took melatonin and if I turn down the light of my tv and turn every other light off in my room, it's not that hard
I don't stay asleep but nearly 8 hours is better than 3

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  |[ 𝖠𝖻𝗒𝗌𝗌 ]|

Alright..
Honestly, it’s fine
As long as we know you’re not gonna be on as much it’s not a problem
There’s a lot that you gotta keep in mind.. time to sleep, be with people and be alone
It’s hard to keep them all balanced, but if you do it helps with your mental and physical health

You should just do what’s better for you

3 years ago   Reply

  𝓒𝓮𝓷𝓸𝓫𝓲𝓪

Look um just letting you know its alright you're dealing with things too its understandable

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