Ok so basically

(I'm going to give people code names I won't say who they are but hopefully they don't know also Ima say
Some nasty things about my body and gore so please don't read If your sensitive about that)

After a while of being on this app, I realized how odd I can be when I get into fights I stay bitter and I keep grudges, I've made so many enemies along the way and who fucking knows mabey they will read my post to make fun of me, I don't care I've loved, hated, and felt numb so much hate and love and fighting and just everything makes me numb I don't know anymore I loved them and they said things to me I trusted we shared so much but they didn't respond the way I wanted, I got into fights for this reason alone I have been crushed by my selfishness I've always hated myself for the reason this app is one of the reasons I was groomed (Froget hiding his name fuck it) Fucking Alex I hope your happy I hope you know what you did to me makes me want to kill myself I Wana rip my vagina off and throw it so far away I don't Wana bleed I don't Wana be able to bare a child I hate him he ruined me he broke me I hate him, why the fuck did he touch me why did he know how he could dig into me like that without even being there, I can't fucking look at a map anymore, I'm disgusted by even the sight of the state of Florida cause it's where he's from, why the fuck did he send me those videos all those images, sense I've been near people I love I'm disgusted I keep thinking they will make it fucking happen again I hate myself I've been sitting in my room just crying thinking of it I almost got sent to a mental hospital 2 days ago for the things I did to my legs it hurts so fucking much I hate it I hate everything I wish I could just disappear so many people hate me and I know people will say otherwise but I don't believe it anymore Alex his names like a fucking slur to me I hate him and I hate him I can't stand it, I'm foul and gross, everyone who touches me or comes near me is infectious and I'm the virus, I'm the problem I get obsessed with the people I love but they don't love me they will never think I'm good enough I'm just a little friend I'm just a little therapist a tool for comfort that's why I was born actally therapy, that's what I am and always will be therapeutic completely stupid. Anyways so like yuh

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🍄mooshroom🐸

hey
its gonna be okay.
just trust that god will lead you.
maybe find a counselor? lemme know if u need prayer or help of any kind. i lromise, ill be there. :)

2 years ago Reply