rant tbh

sometimes i just dont know if i wanna be t4t straight
but at the same time i know i cant just expect people to flock to me because the majority of the world is cis but lots of times i wonder would a girl like me regardless of whats in my pants and i know the answer is they wouldnt care (in my area) but i just keep thinking about it
also i wonder if people see me as a gay best friend, people tell me that a lot tbh, i have a lot of feminine friends who are very close to me and dont mind invading my personal space but i get confused so bad
+ questioning my sexuality again i dont think im internalized homophobic anymore tbh and im starting to doubt my attraction to men but i donr think im biromantic but at the same time the men i saw in all district were fine as hell but i dont think id date men ever again