I missed something, can I have an explanation please..?

THIS IS THE WORST YEAR OF MY LIFE

AAAAAAAAA
I CANT IMAGINE WHAT IT WOULD BE LIKE TO LOOSE ANOTHER
BUT ITS BECOMING MORE LIKELY BY THE DAY

ILL NEVER BE THE SAME WITHOUT HER
SHE WAS MY EVERYTHING

almost cry,I really wanted to die but I still have a long journey