dear god.

i just want to focus.

i feel like i cant get my mind focused on anything.

before i wanted my head to be quiet. i just wanted the bad thoughts to go away. now i still have those thoughts, but i cant focus on any of them. i cant focus on anything. my brain feel scrambled. i feel like crying.

my partner is going through some tough shit right now. i cant even focus enough to understand what they're saying when they try to talk to me about it. or just talk to me in general. i cant focus on their voice.

i cant focus on my school work. its so hard to keep my head straight when i’m doing my work. i've gotten called out way too many times in class for not focusing on the teacher.

i just want to have a solid thought. i want to be able to think enough to be able to deal with the situations taking place around me. i feel like an absolute fool for not being able to understand anything thats happening. why is my brain so slow? why am i so slow?

everyone is going to get ahead of me. they all know what they're doing. they're tired of waiting for me to understand. theyre going to make it and i’m not.

i don’t know what i’m going to do.

i’m so fucking scared if the future.

i can’t do this.
i’m not gonna make it on my own.
god i’m pathetic

uh anyway.

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