why wont this mf charge faster

i mean uh hi im still here

phone charge slow

awkward position, hodingi under bed

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you ever just

feel like the walls are closing in on you. you can feel every mistake you’ve ever made crawling on your back. you can feel every inch of your skin and it hurts. you start to think about the future, how you know everyone you love will leave you because good things never last. how they all say the same things people talk about when they talk about people who have left them. you start to fully think about things that happened in the past and how it should have been obvious that they aren’t actually interested in you, you just gave your body up way too easily. you gave in less than a month after meeting them, and then they cheated on you, and now you can’t even trust them anymore. but you’re still attached. how your friends are all lying to you. you know because you can feel it. you can hear them telling you that your friends are liars. that they don’t accept you. you don’t mean anything to them. they just feel pity for you. how you’re going to die alone, and you aren’t actually sure if you’re okay with that like you always say you are. how the only being that will ever truly care for you is your cat, and that’s only because you feed him. how you feel the blood rushing through your veins and it feels like liquid needles. how you feel like crying but it won’t even come out. how you are terrified that there might be another living being inside of you, and you are praying to god that there isn’t, but if there really isn’t that also means you aren’t healthy enough to do so. that you aren’t good enough and nature knows it. how you are dropping all this on people who don’t want to know, and are probably going to think you’re weird for saying this to them. how none of it matters anyway. how everything ultimately has no meaning. how you can feel the air between the joints in your body and it feels like swollen marbles when you move. how even the thought of crying hurts at this point. how you have no one to cry to. how everything will end, and you have the ability to bring that end closer if you could just stop being a coward and do it already.

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anyone?
just me?

oki

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anyway im booooooooore 😋

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  💙 [ Azazel ] 💙

am proud of you <3/p/gen

1 years ago   Reply

  💙 [ Azazel ] 💙

I wish I didn’t understand.
I’m sorry that you feel like this
It’s not fair at all, life just isn’t fair but
Whenever you’re ready to get better you will
Life has its ups and downs, sometimes a lot of downs… sometimes it’s just always downs.
But it will get better.
You’ll get stronger.
And I’m here for you, not out of pity, but because I genuinely care about you, okay? 🫂

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