Random Evil Guy (□) idk felt like making quick random drawing... and venting too I guess

Man... I am not doing well mentally. I was perfectly fine a couple weeks ago, until I had a massive panic attack or something while trying to sleep and I realized the sheer terror that I'm going to die and I will not exist someday somehow garenteed. I am real and someday I won't be. I'm terrified. The word Terrified doesn't even express how scary it is. Death is a monster that is coming for you, you can run a little from it, but it will catch you. You can hide, but it will catch you. You can fight, but it's a monster that has a win rate of 100% I'd honestly rather burn in hell to infinitely than no longer exists. Death is the only thing I can thing about the past few weeks.
I feel like I can hardly enjoy things anymore because why does it matter if I will no longer exist. I just feel awful truly awful. I'm so glad I'm alive, that I managed to be the one brought to life out of infinite possible people. But in a bit of time I will simply fade away. I've been on games and YouTube constantly to escape the dread of it all but the moment I stop it all comes back. I'm honestly not sure if I feel worse then when I was depressed.
Well. Well that's my vent. I was thinking maybe talking about it might help a bit. Maybe maybe not.

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4 months ago   Reply

  PISTOLERO

Dude, I'm sorry death is all you can think about. I hate it, too, and it sucks to think about it. I know you think about "Why does it even matter?" But you've gotta think about it differently. Yeah, death will come eventually.. so why not do everything you can? Even if it doesn't matter, why not do it anyway? Living in fear is not living at all, so make the most of it, man! I think you've come a long way already. You've accomplished so much! But you shouldn't stop there. I view it as, "If I go on about life accomplishing nothing at all, I'll feel worse in the end."
So don't give up, man. Do what you can, make the most of it!!! <:- )

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