My brain is just obsessed with villains from fucking BABIES shows

No it's seriously a thing in my daily life, these obsessions are truly PAINFUL. But at the same time I freaking LOVE THAT.
I think the reason it's so painful is that there are two sides of my brain fighting ; the "go get invested in that media on your own it's totally ok" and the "dude you're so freaking embarassing and so cringe for liking that you're literally a grown adult wtf is wrong with you"
Nah but I really wanna now why it's so specific, why it's almost like a disease. Is it really autism??? Or adhd??? I still don't have a precise answer but apparently it's the closest to neurodivergent hyperfixations