but im terrified what if it just drives them away

Then dont distance, talk to them about how you feel
They care abt you cazt

I have been sorta distancing because I know they are busy with things and their birthday is this week. <(which im not missing i made presents for them. The least i could do.)

I just want them to feel alright and healthy

And idk i vent more close, deep, personal & intimate things with them and all

they been with me for actual years more than one year, thats the fucking longest i ever had a friend (4 years i think.)

i dont want to screw it up suddenly i cannot lose them i just dont think i could bare it

Have you been talking less to them or vice versa
And even if it worries them its cause they care cazt

I mean my irl bestie i talk to been talking less and its sorta crumbling me from the inside out and i dont wanna vent anymore to them it just worries them