I have been sorta distancing because I know they are busy with things and their birthday is this week. <(which im not missing i made presents for them. The least i could do.)

I just want them to feel alright and healthy

And idk i vent more close, deep, personal & intimate things with them and all

they been with me for actual years more than one year, thats the fucking longest i ever had a friend (4 years i think.)

i dont want to screw it up suddenly i cannot lose them i just dont think i could bare it