"everyone feels xyz" "that's a shame, xyz is great" i don't.... have the urge for it myself, and that's okay. I have come to learn i only desired relationships because I wanted an experience, not a person... and being abstinent isn't bad at all, it makes me feel better that i am abstinent.... people make it seem like this is a bad thing, but i *want* to do this

I'm too selfish to become a part of the clergy..... i hope I can still be pure

i don't want to abstain from relationships fully (but I'm more than willing to be abstinant in that area..) i won't become a priest so it wouldn't matter if i married or not, but I want to live pure and celibate completely

i want to marry a woman so badly and just .... be pure, is that selfish.... it probably is, i know many people desire "human" needs however i desire to just, marry and live like a priest (but not become one)

obviously due to, some circumstances relating to the guilt i feel of being a sinner i don't feel like i can be part of that..... however i can still remain devoted luckily... I hope when I learn how to drive, I'll attend mass way more often... i'm excited, sometimes i'm extremely happy that i remained "pure" and celibate