You deserve to get rest and relax. Your clearly have a lot going on and you should take a break if you need it

i might need rest from geloing everyone and forgetting abt myself

I obviously can't do much other than like you said others say just advise you get help but I hope you feel better dude stay safe

many people don't think i.m bad
But yk what it is i.m going fucking nuts
i can't think straight anymore i have delusions shadows flying everywhere round me and all people do is ask ask ask for advise help and chats while i.m there just bleeding not knowing what i.m doing anymore

At the moment I consider you a close acquaintance and I don't think your a bad person so RN I don't see a reason ro