My SA experience (Tw: SA, pedophelia)

I know so many people have gone through so much worse, and my story dosent even compare to some other peoples. But I wanted to share my story for people who have gone through similar things, in case they don't think that their story is valid.

It was 5th grade. My ela and math teacher was a guy. Let's call him Mr.Billy. So I was one of Mr.Billy's favorite students, along with 2 other girls who well call sally and Susan. They aren't super relevant to my story but I think it's noteworthy that he also SA'd two other girls.

So I was having a rough time in 5th grade. I was having a hard time with friends, depression, and my family. Especially my dad. Amd since I was one of his favorite students, and he was one of my favorite teachers, I vented to him one day. Little did I know he would use me venting to him as proof that I'm comfortable with him.

After I vented to him, he would start giving me little things to show that I'm one of his favorites. He would talk to me after class, he would give extra candy when I didn't earn it (we would earn candy when we answered questions correctly) Susan and Sally also got extra candy too. He would also let me go from detention early, because I had 20 minutes off of recess for something, but after 5 minutes he let me go. He also gave me 100% on all my assignments, and even gave me extra credit on some things. If I didn't turn in 5 assignments, I would get full credit anyway.

Then it got to physical touch. At first it wasn't a lot. Innocent side hugs, that sort of thing. Then it was shoulder masages. Not super low and near my 🍒s, but it did get lower later. Then it was him grabbing onto my leg instead of the desk when he would need to bend down to help me with problems. For other people (besides me, Susan, and sally) he would grab people's desk to help them. But it went from him grabbing near my knee to my thigh to my upper thigh.

And through all of this, I never realized that this was weird. I never realized that this was pedophilia and SA. I saw him as a dad-figure so the entire time I thought he was just being nice. And when he got fired for grabbing Susan by the ear, i was genuinely upset. I felt like my dad was taken away from me. But I realize now that if he wasn't fired, it likely would have gone much, much further and maybe even gotten to rape.

To anyone that is going through this and is just now realizing, get out. I'm so sorry. But you need to get out of this situation. And if it's worse, I'm so, so sorry. My heart goes out to all the people that have gone through worse than this. I'm so sorry and it makes me so sick that this happened. I love all of you and feel free to vent about SA, pedophilia, or rape experiences in the comments❤️❤️

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  Heard 🔞(I post nsfw art. DE...

your story genuinely made me gag at points, i’m so sorry anyone had to experience what you did.

7 months ago   Reply

  Hiroko

GOD I'm so sorryy for what happened to u!!!
I also remember I was S/A by a cousin when I was like 7. he was like touching me in weird way and I thought he was playing with me but when I grew up I just realized what he actually meant to do💀😿

7 months ago   Reply

  Red (the og)

Holy shit thats horrible i feel so bad

7 months ago   Reply

  Mini muffin

Don't compare it to others, s/a isn't a competition, trauma is trauma and you deserve to be seen for it, I'm so sorry you had to go through that and I'm glad your safe from him now

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