Im actually going to lose my shit, i can’t believe i would ever fucking hurt Zimick like that, i want to travel back in time and fucking murder myself for what i did, i want to strangle and beat the shit out of 13 year old me so damn bad right now.

I can’t even bear to look at my own god damn reflection because the last time i did i punched myself in the face and screamed at my mirror.

And now he probably will never forget me and what i did, im such a moron im such a fucking idiot why would i do something like that?

Now im left here alone for the stupid shit i did 2 years ago, im a monster to Zimick and i don’t blame him because i really fucking am a monster, and now im posting stupid edgy bullshit on a stupid bullshit account to try and regulate my feeling but it won’t work.

It will never fucking work i can’t ever forgive myself for what i did and now i likely will never forgive myself because i can’t even fucking talk to Zimick cause he’s gone.

Forever.

He loved me so much and i want to kill myself for not loving him back, i really was one of the only people in his life that treated him like a person and i threw it away like the piece of shit i am.

I want to cut myself so much right now i am beyond furious that i would leave Zimick like that, i was his friend, i was his love interest, and now i’ve molded myself into this giant festering black beast that only wants to feed on his attention like a god damn vampire.

I should of never quit.

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