Hey guys, im not doing so well.

Ever since i came back i started having these short episodes of just shitty emotions and it usually ends up in me finding some way to cry for hours or end up hurting myself or damaging my skin.

I recently walked up close to a mirror again, i hit myself in the jaw, so hard infact i almost fell on the fucking floor. I also read old posts and messages between us and Zimick and i started just sobbing, i fell forward on my bed and shriveled up into a ball while hugging myself because i didn’t have anyone else around to comfort me at the moment.

Even worse the second my Mom came home she saw me and we had a talk, but she didn’t fucking understand what the situation was, she doesn’t understand that im the problem and i need help but she won’t fucking listen.

And now im picking at my skin and saying rude things about myself because im pissed at what i did.

I fucking hate my account, i fucking hate my persona, i hate my face, i hate myself, i hate the things i do, and i hate my younger self, so fucking much.

I want to beat the shit out of myself until i pass out and bleed all over the floor but i can’t see how that would make things any better, i just want to hit something right now and i can’t fucking do it.

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