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I feel like a plague. Even on this app i see countless people being hurt and wanting to hurt themselves and it makes me sick. I know how awful and terrifying their situations are and how hopeless they feel and i know they’re good people so they don’t deserve to go through such. Everywhere i go someone will overtime find themselves in a shitty situation and have shitty feelings and have to drag themselves through the bullshit like i was the one who put that upon them. This isn’t right no one should be hurt and yet they are. I want to lie down and cry but i know that won’t get me anywhere except back in my bedroom crying my ass off like a pissed seven year old. I wish things were like they used to be instead of this colorless fucked up world we live in now. In twenty minutes my Dad will pick me up and we will probably fight and he will feel awful and i know he will feel awful so that makes me feel awful and i don’t want to argue with him but i have to if i want to get to my Mom’s house and i don’t want to fucking talk to anyone right now because everyone i’ve consulted gave me an answer that didn’t help me. Im so scared of what this garbage will turn me into because i’ve watched the videos and i’ve read the stories about children with single Mom’s growing up to be horrible people who murder people and do bad shit. I don’t want to be like them, i don’t want to be anything like a murderer. I very much understand how bad this bs is messing with my head and i can’t bear to see myself hurt another person, not again.

Please don’t hurt yourself or think it’s your fault, i know if you’re probably reading this im either someone you know or not, but i love you all with every part of my heart that still remains. You are worth it, you matter, it was never your fault, you guys are my world and i mean that. It hurts me so much to see someone being caught up in this world and how much it hurts them but i am here for any one of you if you need someone to talk to, i have been through some Bullshit WAY too much so maybe i can help you with anything thats troubling you.

I want to make a good change, so i will still be a good person, let me help you.

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  <Zuo>

(Ello.. You may converse with me whenever you'd like, though it's great your still seeing yourself, especially being aware of the actions being done now, but that's a great step towards changing. <Unlike other's who unfortunately willfully continue on with their thing's> I'm here if you'd like to talk about anything.)

(Dunno why I woke up so early in the morning, it's uh.. 3:11 am ere)

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