Why don't you talk to someone like a irl person a friend or your siblings or parents it would be better than saying this on the internet

Life is hard..but I have a website that can help you it's called JW.org

Kate think of all the people who care about you, so much people do! You would break our hearts (gtg take a shower srry ;-;)

but it's so hard...

Kate you said you would never use suicide as an answer...