god i hope nobody sees this but i wanna let my feelings out on here,,, i want to fucking die, i have been asking help from my friend to make me defeat this fucking war with depression but i cant because he doesnt give a single fuck. it seems im the only one who should help people and i dont get any help back. hes the only one i trust with my entire heart, hes slowly breaking me and doesnt realise it. all of the shit im in rn, being sexualized, harrassed, told to kill myself, being called names and slurs, my family falling apart, and dont have self happiness, i promised myself that i would make it and gain self love, but i lied.