i just want to end it here but so scared. the last time i tried, it backfired because i was stupid enough that a student in my school saw me cut myself then i was grounded and not allowed to touch knifes and anything thats self harming. but now im so afraid of death and i dont know why. that person i trust, i dont want to ever leave him but i want to go so badly. i want this pain to stop. i want my life to be happier. i just want that one wish granted for fucks sakes.