My guy it is a slur used against black people and black people reclaimed it hence why they can say it. That's like saying gays who use the f slur are homophobic. Or neurodivergent people who use the r slur are ableist. It's called reclaiming. You aren't black and therefore the only reason you're using it IS to be racist. Not reclaiming it in anyway because it's not used against you.