If put a knife to myself before during pandemic and I said it can be over and then I remembered all the things I loved and the things I did and I thought surrender without dignety or fight and make a dent and I put the knife back and went to bed I've not been going great but I'm no confident making animations and drawing the animations I started makeing on here are remakes of my drawings paper versions and I've achieved more but stress Is hi and I'm scared of climate change and what happens after you die like. Do you just poof never had a mind or do you remember your life and see god and family it painful not knowing what ends the life and what happens after