I don't know if this will be very helpful, but for me
Half of my life was practically "swallow your tears, get up and keep walking. Because nobody gives a shit with what you feel." this is not a good advice, but i learned it myself. I lost all my irl friends by simply moving to another city, so far I don't have anyone I talk with, Just my mom, my stepfather and my little brother but i've never talked about this with them in my life
And yeah, i don't know half with what you're going through, but i understand
And that's up to you, if you consider me a friend then that's fine and i'm trying to help, if not I'll leave you alone.