If it's you then I'm absolutely comfortable, I had to run away from lillymonster cause of all the lies I made, like one I'm not from Russia, and many many more, all those lies I made where me being a pick me and wanting the attention I didn't get from my online life outside of anime maker my parents did pay attention but not my other online freinds, and I wanted the world in a sense I wanted to be loved but, all of it crashed down when shit hit the fan with a groomer broke up with me (My ex boyfriend wind he groomed me) I was completely changed from then on, I was obsessed with shit I shouldn't of been over dramatic and all around a huge jerk , and I didn't want anyone hurt anymore so I left Lilly monster behind, Lilly isn't even my real name! I mean where did I even get Lilly from lol, but yeah that's why I left dudeskee, what was the whole thing with your bf about though?