Its np and I do care about you a lot. You are human too and I know things are tough but I'm sure light will fill your heart. You don't need to care for our mental health because it's not your responsibility to. You really are a good friend and I enjoy seeing you post.And I experienced the same thing. I wanted someone to love me too but I couldn't accept they didn't. You are an amazing person though and never think that you and your content is bad because its funny and great to see.