My classmates make me feel so bad about myself,‘ like I’m worse than them or below them, even if I’m just a s smart or smth

I’m just not like my classmates and I will forever be an outcast for that. Even the weird kids don’t like me???

My nana (mom’s mom) died and her last words were I love you to my twin, mother and I, it keeps me up at night

Umm questioning my identity very intently because I have a twin and idk if I want to be a girl but I do want to be a girl I just don’t feel pretty enough to be one?

Oh okay!!

The other night I went to a bonfire and had a mental break down because it was a very large fire, very close to a large dry field and no one was taking my worry seriously. The lawn caught on fire and I thought I was gonna vomit I was crying very hard, worried that another big fire was gonna happen. A tree was catching n shit but the adults didn’t worry, one woman laughed at me. Eventually they got a hose and watered stuff down because they noticed that it did spread a lot!!