But there are painful memories that makes you think :

Why... Why did I do this. What caused me to be like this. What am I doing to think this way. Am I not alright. Am I crazy. AM I JUST ANOTHER PIECE OF SHIT?!

This just shows that, these memories can make you feel like you are useless or just like a bastard.

And you can't run from it really, it's gonna be stuck in your brain...