(I'm not good at writing so please excuse my terrible wording and sorry in advance if this hurts you more)

its ok to cry about breakups and your issues but you shouldn't crush ppl with those issues
maybe try getting more professional help bc ppl on the internet cant help you(and I cant neither. I'm sorry)
if it makes u uncomfortable to talk face to face there's texting therapy
I genuinely have no idea how else to help you and I'm sorry for that

there's this crisis line I used to text
(Text HOME to 741741)