And I just didn’t want yessy to get mad at me or be defensive cause people can be like that and honestly I just felt so bad I wanted to let you know how much you hurt me but I’m afraid everyone would gang up on me because I basically lost a lot of friends because of that and I just felt so guilty I never talked to you and it feels so good to get all of it out but that also sounds rude I just I just feel like even what I’m saying just makes no sense and you might get mad at me and I don’t want that to happen I just don’t know who to vent to and I know venting to you might sound you might be weird and gJwnansnsmam