I feel what your going through I'm going through it too. The constant thought of not being good enough keep many people stuck in bed. I really want to give you good advice but the only advice I can give you is to talk to a therapist. That's the only thing I can say. Whst ever you do dont put yourself down, it makes things much worse for you and your mental health. I know I dont know much about you but I know what your going through. That's all I can say except someone out there has your back even if you dont believe it