What your going through right now is hard, I don't know what it is but that doesn't matter, how your Reacting to it shows that it's hard for you. I can't really help but I can tell you that all the stuff your thinking is really fucking stupid, but listen to me for a minute I did that ki da stuff myself and it didn't help at all whatever you think it's going to do it's not going to do it. But think like this today was hard but tomorrow is another day if you keep wishing for tomorrow to be better then you'll have good and great days and even when days are hard there's good you just have to look at the small things