I told a group what is wrong and here is what it is.
I’m very sad because I’m worried about family, family members are going in and out of the hospital because of Covid, one almost died. One of my family members that I have a very close connection to is having mass organ failure due to alcoholism. I’m afraid that if they catch Covid it would wipe them out with ease. They doesn’t have much fight left in them anymore and surgery would just kill them. I don’t want to lose them because we have a very close bond. They have always been there for me and they know me personally. I just don’t want to lose them and every day I see them I want to burst in tears remembering they are hanging on by a very thin thread.