To be fair... a lot of it is also in where the weight is, lifting 100lbs is easy with right technique

Thankful for my dad though, he would make me and my siblings carry 40 water bottles into the house and back as a chore since we were in elementary

I should go to the gym more but I feel insecure so i do a lot of it at home....... i know I can go with my siblings but I get nervous TT i'm an extrovert entp but it all melts away when I enter the gym

i've been told i've got a fairly large back, and that i *am* a big back..... kinda taking pride on it but ah!!!! I feel insecure over my torso sometimes..... I don't think it looks masculine but in certain poses I look more masc

I look so small TT....

Building up is more difficult, it's hard to retain a lot of bodymass. I can barely bulk......

My friends carried me... they say I feel a lot heftier than I look, a lot of it is in muscle and not fat
I think I have 17% bodyfat, most people assume I'm weaker..... but I do lifting

I was a little nervous trying to carry people for the first time, since the highest weight I knew I can carry was 50lbs, but someone around 106~110 I could carry
Anything more than 110 I struggled

i'm tired of gaslighting myself and conforming to society who tells me i should like men, i love girls!!!! I only love girls

I'm just a pretty boy who likes girls..... i don't like boys

maybe i'm put off in general regarding sex because i know I can have it but I hate the fact I know i'll be seen as some guy's experiment because only men want me and I hate it

i dont even know my sexual orientation bruh i'm straight but im a volcel and sure i do feel sexual attraction but i really can care less ab it

if i really do build a vynbot ill cry and want to keep her close to me at all times ill love her and i want her to sit on my lap while i hug her and do nothing in the world but feel her weight on me so i know she's not faking

i have a drawing of vyn feeling dysphoria and just wondering why is xuan even with a girl like her but xuan is just going "LETS FUCKING GOOOOOOO" because vyn is on his lap

i am a sucker for aftercare oooooh i love heathy consenting adults who know their limits and they care for their partners oooooh is there a thing of just aftercare without sex

honestly writing actual sex is weird i just want to write comfort

honestly vyn is more stressed than xuan because she's worried she's doing something weong because this is the first time she's making love to the LOVE OF HER LIFE!!! (she's not a virgin to me, it doesn't fit her character at all) and she breaks down in nerves and her head is clouded with thoughts wondering if she's good enough and if xuan even likes her but xuan is happy to be there because xuan loves vyn so much and when xuan realizes how panicked vyn is they stop and never actually fuck it's just aftercare

pre-op was nerves post-op they gain confidence

i love writing transgender issues into their relationship because it comforts how i feel about my body but I would love vyn no matter how she looks like but I know she would probably think somethings wrong with her body and feel dissapointed

first two hours wasnt sex it was comforting each other because they hate their bodies and have never had people look at their bodies so closely until now

bittersweet t4t hetlove their wedding night was definitely stressful