the only issue is i never wrote creatively for years, and it's in first person narrative...

I'm conflicted with myself. I hate myself for wholeheartedly believing in these ideals, and yet these words spill out of me when someone is inferior to me
i can't help myself and it's shocking to look back on how I treated others
these are my words, my thoughts, I can't deny and tell myself that "i would never think that" when it's well documented how I place myself far away from everyone in this world.
The Unabomber documentary, it made me realize how extreme my narcissism is. Those words were like mine, they described how I feel perfectly. I'm someone witnessing everyone elses life through a glass window.
It irked me when my class was demonizing narcissism. I guess it's reasonable, but narcissists can live healthy lives. I can live a healthy life

I live in a constant negative feedback loop. I need everyone else in the world to acknowledge me, to percieve me entirely and to tear every atom of me apart. Inspect me and witness my thoughts. And yet, the more people look, the more I feel afraid and that I am undeserving of someone's eyes.

I hope something happens to you. Count your days.

that's called manipulation what is wrong with you

"I need to kill myself because this world is so deluded and I am the only sane one, if I don't kill myself now I will waste my time with every degenerage in the world. I'm in a world full of crazy people, they're all insane and I need to kill myself to free myself from insanity" YOURE NOT SANE 😭

wveryday in my head is so funny i think im normal and then i come back with a clear mind and realize i need help or else one day ill kill myself

hrm. i wrote a long comment describing my experience with NPD but its wiped.

idk... making essays is really easy but creative work is more difficult

i boost myself too much sometimes but I feel like I could make really good stories given the chance.... I'm having my friends beta read my creative work and they said it's really good so far

using my AP english skills to good use..... my 6 score isn't for nothing

"straight male writing lesbian stories" yeah and im cooking, father provides food for the family you guys will be eating good

idk i think its just funny

seen so many instagram reels with comments going like "i wish he was like this" or "where can i find a guy like this"

Me when I find out a LOT of my problems have stemmed from the fact it's NPD and I never had proper treatment/care/awareness about it and now my idea of the world is fucked but i have until 25 to make better habits

Me when i wonder why do people not like me and why do people think i'm wrong when i'm right and then in 2023 i find out its NPD and that I have issues

I've been working on it. It doesn't mean I'm "cured" of illness, but I've been trying to be more empathetic... People like me are not inherently bad people, or anything of the sort, but I have to acknowledge that my mindset and actions have hurt other people even when it's the truth (to me)

My love is inherently twisted and this is why I have steered clear of being in a relationship now, despite knowing plenty of (sadly men.) people are interested in a guy like me. I feel awful, what if I unintentionally go back to my old habits and hurt people

I fantasize about a relationship often, but i know it's healthier for me to never be in a real one. I don't need to be in one, but I feel so lonely sometimes

I'm aromantic, mentally ill, narcissistic, and i spend hours of my life stalking. The only people who would like me are people who are as equally fucked as me, but I don't want to be this way. I have a normal life now, I'm able to be functional, I just can't maintain a relationship