It makes me feel violent knowing people pretend to be me and claim to "like" her

ARE YOU HATING ON ME AND MY DREAMS

me and vyn are cure & ruler of my heart alien stage 😞

she said shes from the islaaaands and im jst tryna find her 💔💔

Can't die until I'm rich and sexy and have a cute gf ;3

Can't die yet until TOT is finished 😞

i genuinely have a desire to kill myself but npd is keeping me alive this is toxic yaoi

this cat d
this cat r😂
this cad j

something devilous has been brewing inside me and can only escape through the means of physical violence

i said watch ur TONE

me explaining to my doctor my constant thoughts have been "i should kill myself it's really easy to do so" or "hmmmmm but something good is happening so i shouldn't kill myself yet"

Anyways... getting referred to more medical professionals again and maybe they can fix me idk.

i forget that people dont *actively* think about killing themselves sometimes because it's just. My normal thouguts on an average morning and i was asked "is.... is this a recent thing? Because you talked about it since January" and i drop the bombshell it's been going on since fourth grade

in my distress i played tot and paid to win, at least hungering desire vyn is home

You know, before I went into cyber security I wanted to be a doctor.

"ohhh but it doesn't hurt" you act like i'm a idiot i know they dont fucking hurt it's the mental image of it

one day i'll maybe love my neighbors as i love myself sigh. it's rough.

not excusinf my past behavior this sounds wrong Ugh i mean. My previous viewpoint of people in general was that they were easily replaceable to me and that people should serve for me only and now it's "some people are on my level so they should be treated nicely"

Also my term for recovery doesn't mean my NPD suddenly dissapears because i wish it was that easy but no recovery as in oh i'm learning to at least treat other people decently

sometimes people's responses to my NPD is cool and i like it (like my friend mentioning building me back up from Narc collapse, or unintentionally making NPD jokes like putting my name first) but the fucking weird ones brother eugh i do not want you nor are you my equal do not ever say that everr

Money is the root of all happiness

trung shout out if u see this lil brah