cant stabd that guy, hate him. hope he dies (hangs up a giant kdj poster on my wall)

i hope he dies

And i hate him

Hes ugly

i read the novel a qhile ago
hated it
never read orv
i hope kdj dies

i lobe you hsy the woman of my dreams

HAN SOOYOUNG THE ONLY CHARACTER I CAN TRUST NOW

I HATE ORV.

......... i forgot mpreg was canon in orv i should tell him that

also my friend associates me as his orv friend hehehehehehehe im the orv person

kim dokja looks so. Ugh. Im straight but i want him

but not in a romantic way

cna't a girl just keep me as her art gremlin or something and it's a beneficial symbiotic relationship

i mean. i would also just prefer for a beautiful woman to be next to me and coddle me and tell me everything's fine but beggars can't be choosers

god let everything in my life be done and stress free and that TOT is finished and my friends dont worry about me thag much so i can die

sigh. daily reminder that despite my active suicidal idealization i won't kill myself beucause i'm a pussy and i fear things i dont know

"you're not a horrible person nooooo" my friends have to make multiple interventions for me about my behavior because often I've become deluded and tried to harm people/myself

Also in before any kid's who never met me before or the mental health advocates come in to go "but nooo you're not a horrible monster 🥺🥺🥺 you changed/you're kind to me/etc etc etc bullshit" nobody except a handful of people have seen the whole scope of my mental illness, I have been on recovery however trying to reform me is putting my actions down. I do not wish to be babied

Ugh. I just hate people who glorify the "pretty" parts of mental illness. Almost all of my obsession(s) has been either one sided, emotionally abusive, unhealthy, or a mix of sorts. Everytime I crashed I have felt horrible emotions that drove me to several attempts on my life (which is still on going, doctor said I'm high-risk, the only thing really stopping me is the "good things in my life currently") I just don't get it. There's nothing stopling people from showing how horrible mental illness really is, and yet so many people glorify it like it's a good thing. It's a mental illness.

It's all fun in games with obsession, and yet I spend hours of my day just to stalk people. They don't know I'm stalking them, but every single day I have kept it up for two years. It's all fun in games with obsession, until it's the "scary" parts of mental illness. People claim to be this and that, and glorifying parts of mental illness while putting the shit they find horrific down. Those horrifying things are parts of many people's lives that they go through, they are the parts of my life I deal with every day