I think also people generally believe because i'm "yandere" in nature, surely i'll act the same way towards them...? No. You're not my special person, why would i do those things for you
I don't know, i don't love often, not since....... but i'd like to believe i "loved" everyone even if it wasn't romantic.. my love is twisted and i don't know how to detangle it
i also think the argument of "people turn gay/trans/whatever because of trauma! If they find a xyz then they are normal..." all my trauma came from women and i still find men disgusting.. if anything i find comfort in a woman doing the same thing to me again
"i want a mentally ill partner!" "oh, why are you single? you seem like a good match" i stalk people actively and when i feel a connection towards someone i'm compelled to stalk and harrass them
idk i just think it's really funny how people fetishize people like me but then become disgusted when they realize it's not romantic..? obviousky mental illness isn't an excuse but you all like obsessive mentally ill people until it genuinely threatens your livelihood