me when people tell me they like being my friend, and that they see me as a person they'd wanna be around and that means I'm better than a lot of people and I'll take what I can get atp
I was so nervous before starting college, since I had to rebuild most of my foundation again. but as I'm trying to improve my behavior, I've been open regarding the fact that I don't care for people and it's kinda improved a lot of my friendships. A lot of my friends understand me, and it's really great... and even though I do have to "pretend" to care emotionally still, they appreciate the fact I'm trying to be around (even if I still lack "comfort")
being told by other people that they really appreciate that I'm trying to be upfront with how I think, since for the whole entire time I have built walls around myself to project a certain image. I'm a little glad that despite my lack of "empathy" and care for everything, I am still someone people prefer to be around
she'll go and say something loke "you should cut yourself or i'll fucking do it for you and you know i'm really going to slice your arm off you. Or i'll cut myself first. Choose right now because I'll fucking do it don't you think I won't because I Wwill and either onr of us is going to get hurt. Rather it be you or me."