lalalala Rainbows and horses Luka only dreams of happy things and im happy all the time. i love being happy all the time. nothing wrong has happened to me and I am not mentally ill. My Life is never disordered and I Think of Good Things

just remembered what this was originally about I was going to say i opened a new tiktok account for public use but my ptsd kinda gets in the way because i dont want to befknown at all and i dont want people to think they're close to me when they're not and then i remembered my nightmares ans dreana Excepr I Can't Talk About My Nightmares because it was disgusting and vile

idk. i know I never dealt with grief properly and I still won't. it just feels better to swing my arms and be violent but that's a negative feedback loop that will do nothing. i'm in my own personal hell and all i can do is say sorry for my aggressivenature... maybe i will donate my brain to scienceand they can study me properly Already an organ doner anyways

there's probably a way better coping mechanism for this But I'll cry myself to sleep the same way regardless

idk. it's not that i have nothing to show for it, it's just that my awards and medals feel useless. maybe i'd be happier if my grandpa was alive and smiled seeinf me succeed and maybe i would be a better person

dead grandpa vent number 500 nothing new with luka who cares I've typed the same thing since forever

find my 7 pages (discord is vynbf)

playdate related i guess even though vivi isnt playdate character Still thinking about him as carrot "now I'm in Ed Sheeran's body....." fuuuck

mint: bacon avocado
apple: bacon avocado

mint (raising up her cleaver knife): i know you slept with my boyfriend. (minh)
apple: ......bacon avocado

currently using personal but i have thought of switching over to business for other reasons... i think personal is fine imo just use business if you're looking to do large stuff

i use paypal all the time since it's more accessible and convenient for a lot of people but yeah i understand the worry 🥲 definitely talk to your bank about it though

do you... not have a bank account????? dont keep money in your paypal pls

my favorite part about carrot is definitelyhis face and lack of blush it was just originally a thing i did back in my old acc just not cokoring skin but it was kinda genius now because it does give some biological lore behind carrot & appke beinf plant people.... lalalala vegetable people produce less blush because they have less sugar and fruit people produce lots of blush because of the sugar and i guess in really special cases carrot can blush but he'd have to be at a really really warm temperature for that Hint Hint

well this and minh hintedaromantic but nobody gaf actually Hes just there to project my own feelings onto

i call them yuri and yaoi in certain situations because in my head they are a certain gender but i really actually dgaf about their genders i designed all of them to be intentionally gender ambiguous like they have pronouns sure but that doesnt actualky matter tbh

still on this everyone in playdate except apple is Whatever Sexuality. apple is the only confirmed raging homosexual

my only happy playdate oc is just apple but thats because he's a genuine dumbass and so horrifcally gay to not actually be interested in pepper

just a slight lore update for carrotpepper

fawwk the carousel horse Why havent i used that yet also Yay no problem 😛

i got the vyn one obviosully.... heh. i love my vyn phone I never actually decoratedmy phone at all since 2023 oops. i forgot i had a mint phone for the reason to decorate so new keyboard time