not on am but some people on discord dms think i'm so hateful and i think its funny because i do purposefully be mean In Public

i also just kindafeel like my ocs arent non binary enough uehrfhfhehehf..... I want them to seem like they could be either gender despite of fixed pronouns.... it's a key characteristic i explicitly wrote when making pepper& carrot

a lot of kenzie's character traits still revolve around temptation and being sadistic & not entirely caring for other people But scrapped the allusions part he's just a freak

oh i never wrote this down here
I thought of maybe making allusions toward the bible especially with the garden of eden since in a literal since kenzie is an apple; split tongue like a Snake
i had this idea but never eent anywhere with it since apple is the most shit post character out if them all and i already wanted to make mint the antagonist.... it didnt make sense to me and i scrapped this idea

there was genuine grief and despair in ny eyes seeing someone with a similar oc to mine except Their apple wasn't a hunky raging homosexual with no idea of thinking before speaking

please dont make me actually canonize the bible in playdate

have any of you considered that you're all annoying and the only special trait within you all is that you were manufactured to get increasingly stupid with each product made? Is it really that hard to believe the man who's quick to block as if he's trigger happy will not stand for anything he doesn't like on his page?

everytime i make a serious cry for help I am only proven why I should stay avoidant You all disgust me

i take tgis back I hate Everyone and I especially hate viettok Yeah Thanks I want to think about my other grandparents dying too I hope bad things happen to all of You I just stopped crying And then you show me this

dont even imply that these vents mean i'm close/being personal because on priv twt it gets worse 😂

lalalala Rainbows and horses Luka only dreams of happy things and im happy all the time. i love being happy all the time. nothing wrong has happened to me and I am not mentally ill. My Life is never disordered and I Think of Good Things

just remembered what this was originally about I was going to say i opened a new tiktok account for public use but my ptsd kinda gets in the way because i dont want to befknown at all and i dont want people to think they're close to me when they're not and then i remembered my nightmares ans dreana Excepr I Can't Talk About My Nightmares because it was disgusting and vile

idk. i know I never dealt with grief properly and I still won't. it just feels better to swing my arms and be violent but that's a negative feedback loop that will do nothing. i'm in my own personal hell and all i can do is say sorry for my aggressivenature... maybe i will donate my brain to scienceand they can study me properly Already an organ doner anyways

there's probably a way better coping mechanism for this But I'll cry myself to sleep the same way regardless

idk. it's not that i have nothing to show for it, it's just that my awards and medals feel useless. maybe i'd be happier if my grandpa was alive and smiled seeinf me succeed and maybe i would be a better person

dead grandpa vent number 500 nothing new with luka who cares I've typed the same thing since forever

find my 7 pages (discord is vynbf)

playdate related i guess even though vivi isnt playdate character Still thinking about him as carrot "now I'm in Ed Sheeran's body....." fuuuck

mint: bacon avocado
apple: bacon avocado

mint (raising up her cleaver knife): i know you slept with my boyfriend. (minh)
apple: ......bacon avocado

currently using personal but i have thought of switching over to business for other reasons... i think personal is fine imo just use business if you're looking to do large stuff