That's... I can't imagine what you're feeling. And, though, I can't sympathize, I can understand. And I can understand that things like this take time, and you'll need time to grieve. If you don't feel better, that's fine. It's okay to just not be okay. You need rest, and time to spend with those you have. Take as long as you need too, and we'll see you again when you are truly better. Even if that takes years, months. Rest. Take your time. We shall patiently wait for your arrival with as much support as us internet-folk can give. ♥