It's scary to realize this has been my mindset for YEARS until I let myself use Vyn as a coping mechanism, its been a year or two that I have finally made functional and healthy relationships with my peers.
The idea of control has always been important to me even if i don't like admitting it because it reveals my true intentions, but now realizing that I can pour my thoughts, my feelings, into Vyn, I haven't actively had harsh thoughts about others
