when people ask me why i'm failing I tell them I don't care about my grades. It's partially true, but the main reason is I never saw an actual future for myself. I tell my friends i'm not actively suicidal. It doesn't mean I don't want to kill myself anymore. I think about it, but I don't have to kill myself. Everyday, i think about it, but my friend is already experiencing grief. My empathy expands enough that I won't kill myself