Ive lost many cats and dogs, but has it intervined in my path of becoming a better person?, No. I have lost friends on whom i so dearly loved, it is a pain to even deal with and even to think about it. You do not know me. and i do not know you, this isnt gonna help with your current state of well being, only making it worse since you hide in this persona that you have so made, think about the actions that you have done and how it has affected both others and you especially. I know ill lose my Parents and my Friends and my Pets. You want to have a competition about that?, no. it is not benificial to even have a competition on who got the worst trauma out of us two, Only thing is to talk about it and how you may solve it, i may assume that you use this thing as some sort of coping mechanism. which isnt the best but one of the worst. you may talk me over it if youd like or you can keep insulting me. Stop trying to play the victim here.