The one thing i did is that, i gave those burden to Him. I may have done some work on fixing that but i cant fix all the problems of myself and others. It has indeed pushed you away, yet it has now retracted it effect. Man, ive actually considered thinking about it though since i didnt.. No. i did know what they felt, now's not the time to think but do now. Sorry about that, ill be changing with this now rather than what has already been.

At the start i was like an vase full yet empty at the same time. dont know how to explain it any further though.
Yet now that it has realized many, now he is full.

Hows the tomato plant going though?.