You have no idea the utter shock i was in when i saw Nix (the fox) having a skin in a dress

Just hope i dont go to hell
If so that wont go so well
Ive been bad but no one tell!!

I sounded british in that sentence.

Im still learning how to draw chubbiness cut me some slack

INNER FLAME GIRLBOSS OVERLOAD :3

and a bag of chips

Thx

I mean yeah my family has problems
I do have a therapist tho i dont see him that much
Ill probably see him soon
Thanks :)

Hi :3

Oh hey look youre alive

I spent 15 minutes writing that bro.

The thing is i want to manipulate, i dont do it unconsciously, i REALIZE im a manipulator and i wont stop anytime soon, and i dont even feel guilty about it, if anything im proud i managed to convince people im the victim, im proud i managed to blame the other side when i know im wrong, i am aware im not the victim, but i just cant take the idea of me being wrong, even if i actually believe im the victim i usually realize im not sooner or later, and its not like that realization changes anything, i dont feel guilt or remorse at all, i should, but i dont, sure sometimes i can convince myself im the victim but that doesnt excuse it.
I dont even have anxiety or depression, i have BPD and cyclothemia, sure, and i have their mood stabilizers but those dont even do anything
(Btw thanks for listening and not judging, if you're still not judging, that means a lot to me.)

Typing that damn sentence was so hard for me because i genuinely cant admit that im wrong anymore ugh

I dont want to be like them because what they did happened to me
If it didnt happen to me i just dont care even if im the one manipulating,
And i do want to do it
I shouldnt want to do it, maybe it was my family's emotional detachment, or it was cause they rely on me too much, i dont know, but either way i picked up on it and i just cant feel guilt and remorse anymore, its like no matter how bad the stuff i do are i always find a way to justify them to myself or play victim
No matter how cringe that paragraph sounded.

No questions but silly "mike" guy is adorable idc if hes a psycho

Its okay

The worst part is i dont even feel bad for being this way
And i should feel bad but i dont and it sucks and i try so hard to feel bad but i just cant
You recognize your actions and youre willing to try and become better
But im not
And i should hate that about myself but i dont
Wtf am i supposed to do now help me

thanks was a terrible reply choice wtf is wrong w me

thanks

Im sorry 4 u