okayyy okayy
i just feel like i dont want to eat again
i feel like its the last thing i wanna do
im fasting today and tomarrow and until dinner on saturday
i wanna start going to my dads house
but its not as easy to skip meals there
maybe i should go on like weekends and
idk
ill think abt it in my first block
i cant eat salad tonight
on saturday i got a salad because i really couldnt bring myself to eat after what she said
and i said as a joke that i did it to make my nana feel bad
and today it happened again
and i cant bring myself to even think about eating
and theyre gonna make me eat pasta
and i really just dont want to
i cant bring myself to
but in their minds
im only doing it to make them feel bad