Hon don't kill yourself I know it's horrible right now but you can push through it next time anyone tries to hurt you you hurt them and if you get in trouble say you were defending yourself please don't kill your self. I hope your self harm habits stop. One of my close friends killed themselves and I feel so guilty because of it even though I did nothing wrong I really don't want you to go cause then I may feel guilty but this isn't about me it's about you and I really hope you get a lot of help so you can stay here and get better. I love you so much more then you will ever know please PLEASE be safe.