I do love my sister, sure, but I'm always being an ass to her. Like she tries to be nice to me and show me affection but I bush her away and I yell at her for not doing things right when she's five years younger than me. And my mom loves me, ik, but I'm an ass to her too. I talk back, I don't do what I'm told, I'm annoying, I'm just a terrible person in general