you're lowkey being a hypocrite rn
most of your posts are you dumping your shit onto random people online
no one here can actually help you dude, i'm pretty sure most of the people on this damn platform are children... if you don't have a therapist yet I suggest getting one and talking to them instead.
Like i'm sorry but constantly venting on an art app isn't going to help anything
I'm sure you have plenty of people who care for you and try to help, so maybe utilize those people and not random people who shouldn't be trying to help with something they can't.
I apologize if this is rude or makes you upset but it just gets on my nerves always seeing depressing shit when I'm scrolling through art and what not. You gotta help yourself and stop relying on the internet to fix your problems